I am the Mountain Man!
I was thinking about this blog I wrote a while ago and did not know where I wrote it and I finally found it on Facebook. It was written March 14, 2009. ENJOY!
So this morning I was in a movie watching mood and I found Spiderman 3 on the tube. Just so you know I love Spiderman. Anyways, I got real depressed watching it. The whole idea about the power of good and evil got to me. Sometimes in life it is so much easier to put on the “dark” suit in order to get what we want. In my personal life I am battling school, no income, wondering where I am gonna get money from, wondering how long I have left with my father, the stress of him being sick, trying to fit in a new place with new people, keeping healthy, feeling lonely at time, letting go of my past and dealing with past demons and familiar spirits. This movie got me thinking all that I have placed on my shoulders. It really got to me and I felt like giving in. I started feeling weak and like it’s never going to get better.
I love nature. One of my favorite hobbies is to go out and climb a mountain. It’s a workout for sure but it is something I enjoy. I get to the top and it’s like all my worries go up to heaven. I feel so much at peace and I look so happy even though I am out of breath. At birth I was given the name Aaron and ironically my friends have nicknamed me “Mountain Man” because of my love and passion to climb mountains. Aaron is of the Hebrew origin and its meaning is “mountain of strength”. I have been called to climb mountains in the spirit and God has provided me with everything I need. All I need is Him. It’s not an easy calling but it is what God has called me to. Sometimes when I go to the mountains I know it’s going to be hard and I know I will make it to the top. I always make it to the top. But always along the way I get out of breathe and I feel like giving up. Even though I know whats at the top I still wanna call it quits. Same thing happens to me in own life…I know I will make it through school somehow, I know I will find a good job in God’s timing, I know God is going to place new christian friends in my life, I know God is going to direct me to my future wife, I know somehow my dad’s purpose is going to be fulfuilled and that everything is going to be ok it’s just so hard to deal with and I wanna throw all God’s promises away because it’s easier to do what’s easier. We wanna throw all our God given dreams and prophicies away for a little bit of comfort. Why do we do that?
At the end of the movie there was a quote that struck me. It said, “Whatever comes our way, whatever battles we have ragging inside us we always have a choice. It’s the choices that makes us who we are and we can always choose to do what’s right”. How true that is. God has given us a choice. The choice to endure. The choice to accept Him. The choice to love Him. The choice to turn away from God and let spirits like pride rise up in us. The choice to make the wrong choice. For the ones who have made the wrong choice there is forgiveness. God is ready to embrace you, to love on you and to strengthen you. For some you have made the right choice. You haven’t given in. You have stayed on the right trail even though the mountain top still seems unreachable. For those who have made the right choice He wants you to make another choice. He is asking you today to choose to surrender all your cares to Him. I am just His servant delivering His message. I was on the verge of giving up on His promise for a little bit of comfort when He revealed this to me. He wants you to know you are not climbing this mountain alone. He is there right by your side as you reach up. He wants you to know to not be afraid of falling. When your strength runs out He will pick you up and carry you to the top. He says don’t worry…just have faith in me.
